Going to the mailbox and opening it and find a letter from a very good friend you have heard from in a while. And it saying "Hey I was just thinking of you".
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Natural High
Going to the mailbox and opening it and find a letter from a very good friend you have heard from in a while. And it saying "Hey I was just thinking of you".
Monday, June 23, 2008
Cat Power - Sea Of Love (Juno Soundtrack)
I heard this song and thought of you my dear friend...
I thought of our dreaming days they were sweet.... The pretend trip to Hawaii that was the most wonderful trip I ever took in my life.... Even if it was pretend it was very special because you were there pretending with me.....
Thanks for the (mim) thing it made me smile and feel nice inside...
I haven't felt that way in a long while....
At least not since I saw you smile at me....
Thanks
mim
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
The Man In The Moon
First let me say this. The moon you saw last night wasn't a complete full moon. It was 98% full. Some say what is the difference? Well to some there is no difference but to me there is.
I have this inter clock inside of me that just gets wound up and I have so much energy that I can go non-stop for 24 hrs or so. I bounce off the walls.
Moon Illusion: A visual illusion that causes the moon to appear relatively larger when it is near the horizon than when it is at it's zenith, although in both cases it subtends the same visual angle of about one-half of a degree or 30 minutes of arc, and although it does not necessarily appear any further away at it's zenith. The sun is much larger the the moon but by remarkable coincidence almost identical to it in angular size, fitting behind the moon almost perfectly in a total eclipse, and it is also subject to the moon illusion, appearing much larger shortly after sunrise or shortly before sunset than at it's zenith. The illusion first appeared in print in the Meteorology of the Greek philosopher Aristotle (384-322 BC), who described it's effect on the sun and stars but oddly omitted to mention the moon: "The sun and stars seem bigger when rising and setting on the meridian". Also called the celestial illusion, especially when referring to the illusion in a stimulus other than the moon.
Outside sometime tonight if the sky is clear look due south east, towards the horizon. If your lucky and the clouds clear and stay away, you will be treated to one of natures most amazing spectacles (a hanging moon).
Everything about the moon will appear as normal, the craters will still be there as will the mountains and yes even the sea's - dark patches of volcanic rock. (This will be visible with even a cheap pair of binoculars).
But most of all "The Man in the Moon will still be smiling his cherry smile down at us......
The sky at night: Somethings you never knew about the full moon.
From: Belfast Telegraph
The full moon is a lunar phase occurring when the moon is on the opposite side of the earth from the sun and all three bodies are aligned in a straight line. Viewed from earth,the near side of the moon is fully illuminated by the sun giving it the familiar circular appearance.
It's only a full moon that the dark side of the moon - the hemisphere on the opposite side to the sun - is completely dark.
Lunar eclipses - caused by the passage of the earth's shadow across the illuminated hemisphere - only occur during a full moon. However, because of the angle of tilt of both bodies the moon normally passes either north or south of the earth's shadow.
Now that I have shared some fact's about the moon I will tell you the simple thing. (I love the full moon) . I try to watch it when it comes up and I say "Hello to the man in the moon". I also make a wish and always ask him to watch over the ones I love. Crazy I know but I have done this ever since I was a child.
I grew up with a older sister that more or less was like a mother to me. Even though she was 10 yrs older than me. I had a stepfather that was a mean drunk. And we would escape to a 3 wall play house with curtains that hung over the holes cut for windows and the side that didn't have a wall.
We would burn candles and talk to each other of a day when life would be good. On the nights when a full moon would rise we would lay on a blanket and watch it come up and she would tell me to trace his face.
She would say if you look hard enough you can see him smiling at you. And always remember he is your best friend. Every thing you share with him your hopes, dreams, fears and even your secrets will stay with him for ever he will never tell a soul.
So that's how that got started. One day she left and moved away. My stepfather was still there and worse than ever. The playhouse I loved and felt safe in was torn down because he said it was a heap of boards that would be nothing but a hazard. So it was torn down and piled up and burned. As I sat there and watched it burn I thought about the man in the moon.
And I wondered what would he do if he knew about that. So I never said anything about the moon.
Times when I could get out on the full moon night I would lay there and smile at the man in the moon and tell him of the hurt and pain I had to go through from the last time I had spoke to him. I would wish to him that one day he would bring some one to take me away from all the hurt and pain.
On nights when I couldn't get out I would pretend to be asleep until everyone was in bed asleep and I would sit at my window and tears would run down my face as I would say hello to him and tell him my secrets and ask him to take me far away to a better place.
Well one day I grew up and I moved away and even got married. But the better place I thought I was escaping to wasn't better. But I still waited for the Man in the full moon to rise and I still would tell him my secrets and dreams and also of the pain.
Well a lot of things has happened since I was a little girl wishing on a moon. Smiling and laughing at the man there in the moon. I have moved on and I have 2 daughters now and I have shared the man in the moon with them from the time they could sit or lay and watch and laugh. They are grown up and my oldest has 2 children of her own. The youngest just grew up and goes here and there. (No children).
Me I'm older now no husband or children to sit with or share things with at this time. No one I can say special in my life as of now. But there was 1.
The one that was special I shared the man in the moon with and my hopes and dreams and even my frears.
He listened to my stories and he would look at the moon and hold my hand and at times even put his arms around me and wipe tears that would sometimes come from sad memories. He would make me feel safe and loved. He is gone now.
But I know deep in my heart that somewhere out there where ever he is when he sees that big beautiful full moon. It maybe just for a few minutes but I hope he thinks of me and smiles. And maybe just maybe he asks the man in the moon to watch over me.
As for me I still watch the full moon rise. I still share my secrets and everything with the man in the moon. And I ask him to watch over the ones I love and care about. To light there way at night and keep them safe from the shadows no matter where they travel .
This is my very best friend a friend I have had since a child. The one I always told my everything to. I trusted him because I knew he would be there every time he was to rise. And he would never tell all I have told him. He would always see me for me. All he would do is shine his glow on me and smile with kindness.
My Man in the Moon.
The Grand Kids Are Coming Today ! !
Today is the big day. My grand kids are arriving sometime today from up north. And it's not for just the summer as usual. But they are coming to stay. Being 12 hours away is sometimes hard when your busy and you just can't just take off to go see them. Every time I see them I notice a change in them. But of course it's because they are growing up.
It's kind of like when you have kids and you work all the time or your away with work. When you come home you finally get to see your kid has grown up with out you.
These two children are my heart and soul. They have some things in common with a great deal of other children here on this side of the world.
There dad serves in the Army. He has been over across that big blue ocean doing a job protecting what's important to him and his country.
Like most of the children that have father's or yes even mother's off doing their job they miss out on some of the most wonderful things.
A tooth coming out and the tooth fairy leaving a dollar or two. Wow when I was a kid the tooth fairy never left me a dollar or two. All mine was worth was .25 cents. Wow how times have changed. I guess back then if you would have gave a kid a dollar or two for a tooth they would have been pulling all their teeth out right then to make that money ....LOL....
I guess what I am saying is our children are growing up faster and faster now. And before we know it they are grown and gone. The things you want to share or do there will not be time. Because now they have to go out and go to collage and work.
Then there will come a time that they will find someone that will be there love and yes they will marry and maybe they will stay in the same home town. But then maybe they won't.
But what kid isn't. My grand daughter likes to sleep with me when she is here. But I have figured out why she has been doing this. Yes she loves grandma (Oh I guess I said it didn't I the G word ...LOL...) she does but I have figured out why she would rather stay with me instead of sleeping in her own room.
Monday, June 16, 2008
Beautiful Big Ocean Waves
Life is like a ocean. You can stand there and feel it's soft gentle waves kiss your feet or you can run at it's power.
I love the ocean. I sit some times and watch the waves roll in. And think of all the stories I have heard over the years of grown up as a child.
Why is the sea so salty? The sea is so salty because of all the tears that every one has shed runs a river to the sea. It's funny how little things pop into your head when you are sitting there looking out over the wonderful ocean.
There has been times when I have sat on that rock and watched the waves rush up and splashed against it. I have sat there and felt the spray and let the ocean take my tears and my pain out to sea. I have shared my joy with the sea too.
I sit here today at the oceans door with many things on my mind. And yes I have a heavy heart. I have opened my self up once again and had faith in some one an believed in the simple things as trust, honesty, hope.
Through my life I have had so many things that have gave me life changing thoughts. I see things for what they are. I enjoy the simple things. A hug from a friend. A smile from a stranger. To watch a child play in the rain.
I try not to close my self off and I always try to believe in that through bad times we learn and we see tomorrow will be yet another day to believe in.
I have learned a great deal from people I come in contact with and I do not judge one person by another.
I have had walls that I have put up because of what one person has done to me. And it's not really the actions it's the pain that was gave either out of meaning to do it or by not. It's still your actions. I have learned that ones actions must be thought about before releasing them because once they are there they can't be taken back.
So over these past week with some things that have taken place I have been doing some deep soul searching with in my self. And being the type of person I am I hold things in and keep them to my self in order not to say or do anything to hurt any one. And this is just venting and we all need to vent.
I have had people come into m life and become wonderful friends and I have excepted them for that. And I have had some com into my life and become energy vampires that such every ounce of energy from me.
My release to the ocean to day is a simple one. My tears I shed are tears of loss. I give the waves my pain in my heart to take away. The loss of a true friend that you hold dear to your heart and you believe in them with your soul. On that accepts you for you and sees your inter self. One that holds your hand and listens below the words you say. That wipes your tears when you cry. That is a true friend and hurts when you hurt.
No this friend did not die to this psychical world we know. This is not that type of a loss. This loss is of someone that I have trusted over the years and believed in through out everything.
This loss is the most painful loss to my heart. But all in all it's a loss I knew would finally come but I did not want to accept because of all this friendship meant to me. I respected this person's point of view and option to it's fullest. But as things goes in life we must let some things go and move on. Not forgetting the things we have learned and shared.
So my dear friend some where in time when you are sitting around and if by any chance I cross your mind. Remember that I do love you and I hope you life dream does work out and you finally do find the happiness you search for. Always remember that I will always carry you in my heart. And I will always think of you with kind and loving thoughts.
And when the moon is full I will see you and think of you kindly. I hope that one day you realize that the one thing you were always in search of was right there all the time.
Be happy, smile and don't forget to laugh. And remember me with a kind and loving heart when you look upon that beautiful full moon that I shared with you.
Sorry for the babbling and I know all who reads this will not understand. But it's alright I am not expecting you to understand. All I am doing is venting my heart and my pain to the ocean.
Life goes on and lessons are never ending and I now know where the weak points of my walls were. Thank you for teaching me the things you have taught me. And thank you for reassuring me of the true fact that I really knew deep down inside. This lesson you taught me was learned. Thank you for all the happy times. Thank you for the laughter you gave me. Thank you for making me feel special when the true thing was I was really just like any one else. Just looking to find happiness.
When you see that big full moon make a wish maybe just maybe the man in the moon will hear you and grant you your wish. He has stop listening to me.
With that the waves takes yet one more heart felt pain away.
Good luck with your life......
I will always keep you with me some where hidden away in my heart........
Thursday, June 12, 2008
A lost friend and child and mother
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
My fav friend sayings
I just want to say thank's to all my new friends. In the friendship world we never have enough of the special people in our lives to make us smile, to help us laugh. To wipe away a tear, to hold our hand. But most of all to be a friend......
Have a wonderful day my Friend......
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
The Lion Sleeps Tonight
Hey everyone. I was on here looking for something to cheer up a friend and this one caught my eye. I hope this makes everyone smile and just sing along.....
Have a wonderful evening my freinds....
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
REMEMBER THIS MOVIE
You've got a friend in me
My good friend Ashley gave me this ideal today.
Disney's Toy Story
You've got a friend in me
(Thanks to Disney for the picture's to make my friends laugh and smile and recall a wonderful moment.)
Sunday, June 1, 2008
THANK YOU FOR BEING
Thank you for lending your ears to hear my pain…
Thank you offering your shoulder for me to cry on…
Thank you for wiping my tears from my eyes…
Thank you holding me in your arms allowing me to feel safe…
Thank you for your understanding and your honesty…
Thank you for making me laugh from my soul…
My world wouldn’t be what it is if you wouldn’t have entered in it and become a friend…
Thank you for being a true friend...